This year Shelby gets TWICE the thanks for being an amazing dad. Yep, we have TWO reasons to celebrate now!
We got the surprise of our lives a few weeks ago when we discovered I was pregnant. No drugs. No doctors. No IVF. No thousands of dollars for high tech treatments. No clue it was ever possible! I have never, ever, conceived naturally and surely did not expect it to randomly happen now.
Once I got over the shock (I actually took another test at home because I was convinced the first one was expired or busted) then the panic set in. Oh my I'm not ready to do this again! Oh my I have to see the doctor immediately! Oh my I am on this damn little island which often reminds me of a third world country! Oh my I literally just sold ALL my remaining maternity clothes to a friend because I was done! Oh my goodness I am TOO OLD for this! The list of reasons to panic went on and on.
The doctor refused to even draw blood until I was two weeks late and almost 7 weeks pregnant. They refused to check my progesterone levels. They tell me I am not high risk even though I told them my whole lengthy history of issues. They will not schedule my first OB appointment until I am almost 12 weeks along. At this point all I can go on is faith. Faith that God gave me this miracle and will protect it.
I am 8 weeks and 5 days today, so it is still early and scary. With each passing day I get a little less scared that everything is going to turn out ok. I think it actually helps that I am sick all the time as a reminder. With Colin I was rarely sick and felt great the whole 9 months. This time around is totally different. I wake up nauseous and go to bed nauseous almost every day. I can't wait for that part to pass!
We've told a few people and the first thing everyone asks is "do you still plan to adopt?" The answer is yes. At this time we have no desire to change our decision. We've always talked about adopting in addition to our biological children, so this doesn't really change anything on that front. We'll have to play it as it comes and see. We've been approved for Portuguese adoption and on the national registry since 8 Feb 2013. We have no idea when they may call us to meet a child, but we'll be ready when they do.
Colin is super excited and asks about the baby all the time. It is going to be a long wait for him until the baby arrives, but I know he is going to be a fantastic big brother and a big help to me. Seeing him excited makes it even more exciting for Shelby and I.
